Complaning and stuff

It's blog-time! Finally! Well it's not like someone is reading it or something, but ... Oh, whatever...
Soooo, randomness... this is today's topic. Nothing in general, just saying what' on my mind...
Let me complain about this week! So, I as you may know I'm in the Bulgarian Red Cross Youth organization and one person told me about a gathering. It will be in a some kind of a hut in the mountains and it's not really near to my town. I was very happy about that gathering 'cuz there are many people that I want to see and they're going. I wanted more information about the whole thing and I started asking ...many people that I thought would know something (but I didn't get lucky with that) After all I got the information I needed and began planing the whole trip to that place. It came out that we have to travel like 2 hours to the city from which we can catch a train for the town where the hut is (and this traveling was ... 4-5 hours). I made it! I planned everything - from the start here to the whole settling-in-the-hut-thing (I hope "settle" is the right word). It took me much time and most of all many nerves to do it, but I did. I was so fucking excited and I wanted it so bad... I even got my parents' permission. And the day before we had to call to tell how many people are going to reserve the rooms and the boy we are going with say that they won't go. Yeah, their parents don't let them... And I was like "WTF?! Fuck you! I put so many nerves in this for nothing?! ('cuz if there's no one to travel with mom and dad won't be pleased like at all) "
I got so mad! I can't blame them it's not their fault, but I'm so pissed off right now! I wanted it so badly and now... nothing! It's not really fair but who asks me....
Oh, I feel like I have so much to say and still not saying it... Why? Why am I not ...actually writing it? Never mind!
Something else... ? Oh , yes! Another event that I'm not going to - Tarja Turunen's concert! Here! In Bulgaria! In Sofia which is like in just 2 hours from my town.. and I'm missing it because I have school then! It's Monday and my parents don't let me miss school for such thing! So I won't go to the gathering and I won't go to the concert either! Fun!~
This week was very long and stressful. I had many tests and I had to study for them like the whole material for the last year and I don't remember anything from then... And I have the feeling that this one won't be any easier!
I have to go read now. I'm reading "Hell" by Dante Alighieri, it's the first part of the "Divine Comedy" (and I think I may actually have to read it all). I'm kind a surprised actually. Many of my classmates said that it's a really boring book and it's "real hell" :D but I like it so far. I might read it this night unless I fall asleep. Another book I should (at least) start reading is "The Decameron" by Giovanni Boccaccio (these names are pretty strange in English in my opinion, 'cuz I didn't know how they spell and had to search them in Google, Google knows everything! :D). This year we are on Renaissance and omg it's everywhere! We study about it in literature, in history, everywhere! (Sorry if I'm using "in" in front of "literature" and "history" wrong) It's all about humanism and 14-15th century and Europe then and... oh, I'm li'l sick of it but it's actually more interesting than last year's bullshits we've studied.
More... :? Well, I really want some Candles by Victoria. I've watched many reviews about those candles and their scents and I want at least one! I have candle-and-stuff passion and I have many scents of those (I'm not sure how they are called) smoke sticks and only 2 scented candles (with rose scent one and one with green tea) but I think that they don't really smell so strong and watching those videos on youtube about Victoria's candles they really made me want some! But I'm in Bulgaria (like on the ass of the geography) and even if I wanted to order some online I can't 'cuz they don't do orders out of the USA by far! *sigh* It's sad sad story you know! I hope I'll find some candles which I'll like here in Bulgaria.
That's enough ..even a way too much talking shit for one post and it's 01:45 am so I should go to bed and read a bit! Good night or maybe Good morning or Good day (O.o) Oooh, just have a nice Sunday, guys!

First blog

OK, it's my first blog and it's about my first vlog which I'm actualy not sure will I post.
So, I'm not gonna start with something about myself 'cuz I'm pretty sure that there's a section about this somewhere in the profile and if I want to share this with you I'll do it there or somewhen later (I'm not sure if there's such a word as "somewhen" but I used it :D).
I was talking about vlogging and the thing is that I really wanna do it but there's a problem. I watch many youtube videos and I see those poeple vlogging and talking about the stuff they like or don't like, talking about everything that matters to them amd sometimes I have that need to say hat's on my mind and just share it with anybody who is willing to hear me. And I decided to try .. but it came up that I can't really talk... and I don't mean I can't talk like I'm shy or something. It's just that I'm bulgarian and English is like my second language I've been studying it for 10 years and I can understand most of the thing that are said to me and I can write them ... I can think them .. I can think in english but when it comes to talking and saying those things right now in that very moment and I mess up. It's hard for me talking it. *sigh* You might say "well, do it in your language" but here in Bulgaria things like this aren't very popular and if I want to be heard saying those things in language which is talked mostly everywhere in the world gives more chanses to be understand.
And actually this is how I decided to do a blog. It seems like it wasn't hard to be think of but I guess that wanting to do a vlog and be like those vloggers in youtube with many subscribers and people that love them made me forget the whole idea of making this kind of stuff. And having a blog is the best way for me to express my thoughts now.
If you read the whole text I thank you for that 'cuz it really means a lot to me and I ask to be excused if there are mistakes and wrong words or phrases but I'm lazy and don't wanna correct them right now.^^; I hope you'll post a comment about what you think about my first blog post.
Hope you gays have a really great Sunday!

Love,
Mirs :F